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Nov. 20th, 2005

Tomorrow morning I have to go to the lab at the hospital so they can take blood for more tests. Sitting in the lab waiting area at Ochsner these days is wrenching. It's never been a fun place but since Katrina, it is sometimes more than I can take. Many of the people there are elderly and very ill and now along with their health problems, they are now battling much more. Their faces are so somber, so worn. Few people talk but when they do, it's always about the storm and how things are going for them and their families. It is an endless litany of sorrow and fatigue.

I have to go back there again tomorrow and I really don't think I can handle it. The first time I saw and felt all these people in the waiting room, I had to find the chapel so I could collect myself. The emotions swirling around were very palpable and then there are so many faces. It's hard to look in the faces of the older people in New Orleans right now. How can they start over? How can they do it all over again when they have lost so much that they worked forty, fifty, sixty years to build and in a day, it was gone?

The other thing that makes facing tomorrow's visit so much more difficult is that the holidays are here. So many people will not have anything approaching a happy holiday season here this year. Their loved ones are scattered with some friends and family members still missing or dead.

I try not to focus on all of this on a daily basis because it can be too much. But right now I am overwhelmed by everything that has happened here since August 29th. I think of the people, the children, the pets and all of the disturbance and disorder this has brought to hundreds of thousands of lives.

I shall take what comfort I can from the pups and the soothing sound of the needed rain falling on our roof. And I will pray for hope for all of the people in my city who need it like I do right now.

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nothingbroken
Nov. 20th, 2005 11:29 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry you have to spend so much time in waiting rooms these days. Blood tests are never any fun, especially when they want to do them over and over again. *many hugs* I wish I was close by so I could take you out for lunch or something nice like that to try to cheer you up.
silverdee
Nov. 21st, 2005 06:21 am (UTC)
Thanks for the hugs. I am feeling better this morning. And it would be nice to be able to lunch with you, too. We need teleportation!
weelisa
Nov. 21st, 2005 04:59 am (UTC)
What you're feeling is what people must have been feeling after a war. Imagine being in France after WWI or in Cambodia after the bombing. The aftermath of suffering - that's what never makes it into movies. The years it takes for people to recover - and sometimes never.

Oddly enough, I had a strange dream last night. A co-worker and I owned a home in New Orleans and we heard there was going to be flooding and I was so upset. Then when I woke up it took me a few minutes to realize that it was a dream and I was so relieved! Very strange.
silverdee
Nov. 21st, 2005 06:28 am (UTC)
I am feeling more myself this morning. I am not usually a gloomy person but sometimes all of this creeps up on me. I don't want to see the movies that will be made about Katrina. They'll be as bad as the remake of The Poseidon Adventure. ;-)

That is a very interesting dream.
beccak1961
Nov. 21st, 2005 06:02 am (UTC)

As homesick as I am, going home is mentally tiring. There is so much gone, so many jobless. My neighbor across the street is moving, the people on either side of me have lost their jobs, it's rough.
beccak1961
Nov. 21st, 2005 06:03 am (UTC)
I thought of something else, there was a show on last night showing the rescue efforts of pets. I had to stop watching once in a while because, while they weren't being sensationlists, some of it just hurt to much to watch.
silverdee
Nov. 21st, 2005 06:34 am (UTC)
The unemployment, the dislocation, the clean-up. Ths impact and the stories never end.

And I stopped listening and watching stuff about children and pets just days after the storm. It's too much for me to hear and see those stories right now.
beccak1961
Nov. 21st, 2005 06:38 am (UTC)
I can't really stand tow atch animals being hurt anyway, and this was so heartbreaking. I know people died, but animals ... I don't know, it's all awful.
Part of me is so homesick it's sometimes a physical pain, and part of me thinks a few more months away won't be such a bad thing.
daysinger
Nov. 21st, 2005 08:18 am (UTC)
Hang in there
I'm sending prayers and positive energy. I know I'm too far away to experience the pain. But the earthquake that hit us in 1989 had some of the same aftermath. It's horrible, I remember worrying about the older people too. At least they have their lives, they will find their will again. :-)
silverdee
Nov. 21st, 2005 09:26 am (UTC)
Re: Hang in there
Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts. And you are right most of the older folks are certain to find their and get past this. It's hard to see past the muddle and mess everywhere right now.
joybilee
Nov. 21st, 2005 12:07 pm (UTC)
i can't even begin to know what you are going through right now, but i wish the best for you & all of those around you now & always. just remember that all those old ppl are survivers, not just of the storm but of times & spirit.

**hugs**
silverdee
Nov. 21st, 2005 05:12 pm (UTC)
Thank you for your hopeful wishes and the hugs. They do help.
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