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Back In The Land Of The Living

Barely alive, lurching about aimlessly and deathly pale. That was me this week - a zombie with no appetite. I was released to go back to work on Thursday but still felt out of it. I woke up today feeling like I've returned to the land of the living.

I've been soulsick for so long. And as I sprawled miserably on the cool tile of the bathroom floor that first viral night, I realized that my body was at last catching up to how my heart and mind have felt since August 26th. All the roiling anxiety and clenching doubt were physically manifested. I've been turning a corner these last couple of months but this was the final purge of the negativity inside me. And now I finally feel that I am done with my personal plague of apprehension and uncertainty. This life is too short to live in perpetual fear of a future that I can't control. I feel at peace and ready to face whatever opportunities are coming.

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weather_fan
Jun. 11th, 2006 12:04 am (UTC)
Wow. It seems that you've really turned a corner in your acceptance of life post-Katrina. And not one of those fakey corners we're always turning in Iraq where nothing really changes--a real one. I'm very happy for you, and I hope that this peace you've found is a long-lasting one.
silverdee
Jun. 11th, 2006 01:13 am (UTC)
Thanks my friend! I do pray for peace in the Gulf of Mexico, too.

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